Empty Room

by Ghost of a Gentleman

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released February 24, 2017

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Track Name: Empty Room
I've never lost touch like this before, like being trapped in the sea with a stick for an oar. Living was so much easier when i didn't feel like puking on my bedroom floor. Now times have changed and the mood has too. You used to listen to what i had to say to you. Turn your back pretend i don't exist, with all those self-indulgent, single-sided words you spit. 'Cause I've been thinking about it all the time. Just loosen your grip or i'll fall behind. I've been thinking about it all the time. Your words are the poison in my mind. You're so immature. You always ask for more and criticize my every move. Do you wonder why i can barely speak to you? 'Cause I've been thinking about it all the time. Don't be surprised when i leave this behind. I spend my time drinking all your wine. It was never really good enough for you. And my whole life i've given every dime, but i'm still sinking deeper in this empty room.
Track Name: The Habit of Falling
You're wasting my time. You've crossed all the lines. You're not fooling anyone. Slap on a smile girl you'll be ok, but it doesn't work that way. You can't appreciate it to the highest level, unless you've experienced the alternative. The alternative is not what you think, it's not what you think. 'Cause i've been thinking about where i've been and what i've seen. All these thoughts i wish i could convene. I was there before you died. I saved you from the hands of time. I really tried to make things right. I couldn't watch you lose control. You can't appreciate it to the highest level, unless you've experienced the alternative. The alternative is not what you think, it's not what you think. You can't get up unless you allow yourself to fall. The pity party is getting old. All the shit you let unfold, all the damage that you sold to me and all the people that know you the most.
Track Name: Front
Spent these last few years wasting time. Looking back on what I thought was right, i can't find my calm before the storm. Turn back and run until patience takes form. Not knowing what to say i find another way to wreck the day. I can't seem to find the right place or time. You lose your mind but i know it's fine. Set the pace and i'll keep the time. What i'm trying to say is it seems okay, but i'm not okay. It's time for change. A piece went missing and i can't find home. What i'm trying to say is it seems okay, but i'm not okay. It's time for change. A piece went missing and i can't find home.
Track Name: Masquerade Ball
When i talk to you i walk on rice paper. I'm on the mend i wasn't cut out for that, no. As the night falls you only see my flaws, i'm only trying to get my point across. Very few people do this anymore, it's too risky. It's much easier to be somebody else, somebody else, or nobody at all, or nobody at all. You don't have to be a nobody, a nobody. I think that you've lost sight. Can you see any better when you take your mask off at night. You're not fooling anyone. I see right through you, i see right through you. Your transparency won't fade 'cause life isn't a masquerade. When i talk to you i walk on rice paper. I'm on the mend i wasn't cut out for that. I think that you've lost touch. Is it all too much, for you to feel like you're yourself when you wish that you were someone else? I think that you've lost sight. Can you see any better when you take your mask off at night? You're not fooling anyone. I see right through you, i see right through you. Your transparency won't fade 'cause life isn't a masquerade. What if every move you made did not pertain to anyone? What if every war you fought was fought so that you won? And no one else could tell you that you couldn't reach the sun if you wanted to. I want you to.
Track Name: Smothered
I feel it in my chest, i'm a mess when i'm in your presence. Now you're making me feel sick and i can't fight it. I'm on the edge and i'm gonna fall in. I'm gonna fall in. These shallow breaths make me fade fast, but i won't spend my whole life waiting. You take in all my oxygen and leave me suffocating. You're too far in my space, you're always in my face. Every touch it tears my skin, each word you speak draws blood, and there's this way about you that keeps me stuck in the mud. I didn't think that i could have it all if i was all alone. I'm better off when i'm with you, at least thats what i'm told. My ears are ringing. I can't hear myself singing. Why the hell are you still here? I probably shouldn't drown my pity with another beer. I'm ok with confrontation and i'm about to leave this fucked up situation. Every touch it tears my skin, each word you speak draws blood, and there's this way about you that keeps me stuck in the mud. I didn't think that i could have it all if i was all alone. I'm better off when i'm with you, at least thats what i'm told. After all the lies you've said, you think ill make your bed and then lie in it with you. You really have no clue what i'm about and who i am. The truth has always been, that i can't confide in you.
Track Name: Can't Take This Anymore
Washing up to the surface. These memories have all died. Wishing that i could have cured this. It's such a sickening sight. Look what you have done. It seems that you have won. I can't take this anymore. Close my eyes yet i see more. I can't run and i can't flee, 'cause misery is chasing me. You're chasing me. It's chasing me. Diving into the water, hanging onto these lies. The bodies drag me down further. The pain keeps numbing what's right. Look what you have done. It seems that you have won. I can't take this anymore. Close my eyes yet i see more. I can't run and i can't flee, cause misery is chasing me. You want me to believe that every falsity you speak is genuine perfection, stop looking for my acceptance. You fucking gave up on me after all you've witnessed and all you've received. I can't believe you gave up on me.
Track Name: Tides
I never wanna feel again. I've lost touch with who i am. Always stuck on your demands, you know i'm trying. If this falls through then who will be there? It's fucked up how you don't care. You always look at me with that stare and say you've been there. What do you expect from me? To be how you want me to be. To feel your fake affection when i know there's no direction. We're not heading anywhere, we're not heading anywhere. It's up to you to tell me what to do. Your eyes are clouded over, they can't see over your shoulder. I'm done with the dots and the lines and the crooked judgement that you thought you could hide, that you thought you could hide. I never wanna feel again. I've lost touch with who i am. Always stuck on your demands, you know i'm trying. If this falls through then who will be there. It's fucked up how you don't care. You always look at me with that stare and say you've been there. Did you dream again tonight? Did i tell you that i need you? Did you wake up to find that i'm not the hand that feeds you? Every twisted truth you think i can't untie, begs for me to see right through your lies. Keep on dreaming babe, you know it won't come true. I won't be there to save you, i won't be there to save you. You can make believe that you can fly, but you're always stuck, here underneath the tides. I never wanna feel again. I've lost touch with who i am. Always stuck on your demands, you know i'm trying. If this falls through then who will be there? It's fucked up how you don't care. You always look at me with that stare and say you've been there. You say you've been there. You say you've been there. You haven't been there.
Track Name: Street Signs
I see you sometimes before i go to sleep. You slide your way between my sheets. You grab my hand and drag me out of bed into that empty street i've seen inside my head. But maybe these nights are just a dream and you'll never really come for me. You'll never come for me. I've ran this street too many times and every time i run in circles. I've seen it all before. But i'll keep running and wait my turn, but my soles are calloused, my heels are black and worn. Sometimes i think you're with me. Sometimes i convince myself i'm crazy, and truthfully i probably am. You've stripped my head clean of all reason. You've left me stranded in a different season. 'Cause every turn i take on this empty track brings me closer to you and there's no turning back. I might as well take one last breathe and count my blessings, 'cause everything's a mess and i'm near dead already. This is a preemptive, shitty auto-eulogy, and i'll keep praying that you'll come for me. But i'll keep running and wait my turn, but my soles are calloused, my heels are black and worn. Sometimes i think you're with me. Sometimes i convince myself i'm crazy, and truthfully i probably am. I'll keep running and wait my turn, but my soles are calloused, my heels are black and worn.
Track Name: Nineteen Eighty Five
And all i can do is hope that time drags by at a pace that doesn't drag everyone else down with it. But time follows the slow and unambitious beat of my heart. Beating just fast enough to keep me alive. How ironic. It really should be me.

The weight of the world is heavy right now. A piece of me has departed and i'll never get it back. My emptiness is not a choice. I can still hear your voice. You were my best friend and now you're gone. I'm left here waiting. This will never sink in. Loneliness has taken flight. Stay with me tonight.

In memory of James Kelly, we present to you the next three songs. Beloved Friend, brother, mentor, and bandmate. You will be sorely missed.
Track Name: Just Breathe
Just breathe, just breathe it in for me. Watch it take hold of everything. I never thought I'd feel so alone. I never thought I'd end up like this. Now it starts to take it's hold in my chest. I've grown concerned with what you say. Baby your lips feel differently. So just breathe, just breathe it in for me. Watch it take hold of everything. Just breathe, just breathe it in for me and let's face it all another day. Your taste is unparalleled. Watch you explode straight to hell. I'm giving you all i've got to give. I'm giving you all, i can barely live. Elevation is rising. I'll touch the sun without dying. So just breathe, just breathe it in for me. Watch it take hold of everything. Just breathe, just breathe it in for me and let's face it all another day. Let's face it all another day. Let's face it all another day.
Track Name: Plastic Boy
Little fake plastic boy, he sits on the shelf like a little toy. She walks right by, without a glance. Just give him one, give me a chance. You don't know what it's like to fall to the floor every night. Acknowledge me one time, 'cause i can't stand being alone. Liquid nitrogen on my heart. It falls to the floor, pieces go far. The plastic boy can only dream of a day when she can see him. You don't know what it's like to fall to the floor every night. Acknowledge me one time, 'cause i can't stand being alone. I don't want to be alone. I don't want to be alone.
Track Name: Garden State of Mind
I'm going home 'cause i like to sleep in the garden. You woke me up with the sweet sound of your pillow talk. No, i won't ever let you go. No, i won't ever let you go. I will lay my head down tonight, under the new jersey sky lights. I need to sleep. I'm stuck awake but i want to dream. It's nice to lie motionless while you breathe it inside. I won't ever let you go. I will lay my head down tonight under the new jersey sky lights. And theres no place in the world i'd rather be. Laying with you, my darling in new jersey. I wish, i wish tonight that everything, girl, will be alright. I wish upon a star, that we could stay here forever. No, i won't ever let you go. No, i won't ever let you go. I will lay my head down tonight, under the new jersey sky lights. And there's no place in the world i'd rather be. Laying with you, my darling in new jersey.